We are all poisoned wells.

You are a unique individual with free will.

Or are you?

Genetical Core personality 

Plus Years and countless hours of 

BBC and NBC and CBC and FOX (God forbid) and CBC (US & CAN) and ABC (US & AUS) and what not is bound to influence and shape more than one.

Not mentioning that some things will never ever be LEARNED on these Medias as they are extremely filtered and have an agenda that is driven by their own gods, mammon and the likes. Even their so called docos and science programs are tainted and biased and you can forget about political or war truth of any kind now.


It is never going to get down to you the ass, the hoi polloi, the cannon fodder, the copper top in the matrix, the mobile vulgus.

You are way too dumb to play the big game kiddo.

So what is left? Medias and Television entertaining and dumbing down the crowd better than any Coliseum or Forum it might make it hard to get us more renaissance men, polymaths and genii since these giant’s tasks are very time consuming as well. 

There is a part of me that wish and wish and wishes some more that I could have been such a man.  There is a part of me that worshipped such men, hence my devouring of pulp heroes like Doc Savage way back then when I was a child and I had a fever.

When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse Out of the corner of my eye. I turned to look but it was gone I cannot put my finger on it now The child is grown, The dream is gone. I have become comfortably numb.

But now I know that it wasn’t meant to be and it was never going to happen so what I “have” now is what is.

Let me tell you the Truth. The Truth is what IS. And what should be is a fantasy, a terrible terrible lie that someone gave the people long ago.  ~ Lenny Bruce

Lenny was on to something here along with the good old road to hell paved with good intentions and all the “should of” and “could of” and “would of” of the world. (From the verb to of, I of, you of, he ofs)

What should be also has been and still is the subject of way too many witch hunts.

I could of? I would of? After all it might not have been Charlie altogether.  In fact science seems to prove that in many instances no we couldn’t of or wouldn’t of and that is very scary. 

I should really stop using this faulty English and I used to abhor it but I am enjoying it for this instance.

For the record, and for all of you English sticklers out there, (I being one of them at times) the modern times of bad spelling and texting have called for the verb to have to be replaced by “to of” in all instances where should could and would are mentioned.

There is no could of, should of, would of there is or isn’t and that’s all. 

What is done cannot be undone or even wished differently.

I wonder if this was the principle that Solomon applied here.

Ecc 7:10  Say not thou, What is the cause that the former days were better than these? for thou dost not enquire wisely concerning this.

What is, is.  And to be wise is to be like Popeye really!

“I yam what I yam and dat’s what I yam.”

But then again back to my subject among these little particles that ARE ours, there is a billion more particles that have been injected, grafted, or plainly deviously planted in us like some bad weeds, like the parable of the wheat and the chaff.

 SOMEONE came at night and littered our field with junk so that we are not certifiably organic anymore.

We are all poisoned wells. 

So think about that for a minute and try to get down to the bottom of that well and what is really yours all yours. J

ADDENDUM

Not forgetting also that we are all tainted by our parents’ neurosis and drives and own sicknesses for better, for worse, in sickness and in health til death do us part. 

Countless songs are written about the subject: She’s leaving home (Beatles), Mother (Pink Floyd), Perfect (Alanis Morissette) and many more. 

Therefore some sort of Laboratory Procreation and State risen children being the favourite subject of many wannabe Utopian stories, too often a parody or satire of a rather dystopian society.

And then we go to school!  Ah the blessing of programmed programming! J  

Curriculum twisted and controlled and tainted by the nation’s politics and religions.  

History formed and shaped for our ears alone. 

But wait it gets better, there is high school and its shaping nightmare of control and bullying and 

the absolute horrific tyranny of FITTING IN,

of BEING COOOOOOOLLLLLLLLL!

Then you go to college and Uni with all the big dollars involved and the big SPONSORS too. 

Sponsoring in so many cases is nothing short of Prostitution, Whoredom at the highest level,

where what you are taught as absolute truth and science is nothing short of selling whatever your sponsor is offering. 

So yes you can rest now, of course you are an absolutely unique individual with free will.

We have created you that way and you better believe it.

Unique and Special just like the rest of us Number 237 548 1171.

theos vs mammonas

The Brahman principle and concept of all that is good and virtuous and holy whatever that means.

The concept of goodness and righteousness and virtue

vs

the concept of greed, wealth and material at all cost, at any cost:

the sacredness of life being totally irrelevant to many greedy monsters not even a remote concern in their dark evil minds. 

And yes that kind of mind has to be called dark and evil no matter what absolute morality says or doesn’t say and no matter what amorality anonymous could think.

Because if there is ONE thing that is sacred and all that we have, it is our life, our breath. And to lose it because some asshole needs more than the billions he already has and never will be able to spend anyway is just WRONG.  Or simply lose it because my life was estimated cheaper than the money spent to repair a deadly error and so much more twisted plots that count souls in dollar $ign$ like being worried about my lack of production, being much more concerned about my showing to work than any personal situation of mine no matter what it is.

Not seeing me or any person but as nothing but a mean to more personal wealth and you would be utterly surprised to really know who fits in that group. 

How many people are using someone’s misery to enlarge their personal fortune?

How many are  robbing the poor by selling them a bogus dream, preying on their desire to get better and out of their misery?

This can be done and IS done in so many ways. 

Only Humans can be that crafty and deceitful and murderous. 

I can’t imagine any other animal elevated to that kind of corruption.  I mean it is a jungle out there but our jungle is very refined and quite devious and the most surprisingly to me is that pillars of society are the biggest culprits. 

Back in the days it was the Pharisees that were the culprits.

Luk 16:14  And the Pharisees also, who were covetous, heard all these things: and they derided him.

Luk 16:15  And he said unto them, Ye are they which justify yourselves before men; but God knoweth your hearts: for that which is highly esteemed among men is abomination in the sight of God.

But today we have Pharisees in so many forms:

religious leaders, politicians,

corporate leaders (Pharisees AND psychopaths, that is such a good mix),

celebrities of all kinds.

We do tend to worship the rich in a very unhealthy way.

In a sense, serving Mammon means one is greedy, or one who has wealth far in excess of one’s needs. Yet Western Culture remains somewhat obsessed with those who acquire a great deal of wealth. Forbes magazine’s wealthiest people in the world list catches quite a lot of attention, as do shows like Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous.

Even though the word mammon is only mentioned 4 times in the NT (compared the the word theos 1344 times) the principle and that’s all what mammon is, a principle, no god or demon here, the principle has grown exponentially along with the population boom since the industrial age. 

How many have been killed, sacrificed building a future for some entrepreneur?

 “Once upon a time in the west” comes to mind here along with the saying about chinamen and railways. Industrial security is still being a very tender subject and medieval conditions of work are eons from enlightenment.  The Satanic Mills not being from a very distant past are only one of the many symptoms of the unquenchable blood thirst of mammon. 

Seeing it is one thing and probably the only satisfaction.  I think sometimes that the demolition of lies and illusions is the only satisfaction, to see the world as it is, to discern a minuscule part of the Truth. 

Doing something about it seems to me though to be totally futile if not impossible.

One has really no idea of the tremendous magnitude of the evil forces in power. 

Don Quixotes are quickly executed, crucified, nullified, renditioned or just disappear. 

Julian Assange is next in line. 

You do not bring light in the darkness but at the cost of your life. 

Darkness does not play by the rules, has no rules. 

Life is totally irrelevant to them:

Gordon Gekko: When I get a hold of the son of a bitch who leaked this, I'm gonna tear his eyeballs out and I'm gonna suck his fucking skull. 

The good old Chaos vs Order battle.

But even though some old French wacko thought the epitomy of evil was British way back then J

Later occultist writings such as De Plancy's Dictionnaire Infernal describe Mammon as Hell's ambassador to England.

For Thomas Carlyle in Past and Present, the 'Gospel of Mammonism' became simply a metaphoric personification for the materialist spirit of the nineteenth century.

it seems today that it just has another name.

Gordon Gekko: The point is ladies and gentlemen that greed, for lack of a better word, is good. 

Greed for lack of a better word is GOOD.  Wall Street!

American Intere$t$ is always number one in their meddling and warmongering.

Greed for all I know is a blood thirsty beast that is never ever satisfied like death, and fire, and the desert and the barren woman.

Pro 30:14  Don't be greedy, merciless and cruel as wolves, Tearing into the poor and feasting on them, shredding the needy to pieces only to discard them.

Pro 30:15  A leech has twin daughters named "Gimme" and "Gimme more." Three things are never satisfied, no, there are four that never say, "That's enough, thank you!"—

Pro 30:16  hell, a barren womb, a parched land, a forest fire.

Certainly not living out of this principle

Pro 30:8  Banish lies from my lips and liars from my presence. Give me enough food to live on, neither too much nor too little.

Diss the book all you want these remain good principles.

I shall never be ashamed of citing a bad author if the line is good.  Seneca

None of this will ever stop this mammonistic spiral we are going down, this mammonish nose dive but still as I said it is nice and good to have discernment and some sort of sense left on this crazy planet.

BOTTOM LINE IS AS CLICHE AS IT SOUNDS and much forgotten apparently at so many levels

LIFE IS PRICELESS!!!

I came into this world with nothing and so far I still have most of it.

Now let me finish with my sick old joke. J

A rich man once asked the Lord to let him take some of his possessions to Heaven. The Lord finally allowed him to take one suitcase. The man decided to fill the suitcase with gold. When he got to the gates, Peter told him he couldn't take anything with him. The man protested that the Lord told him he could bring one suitcase. Peter said, "Show me what you brought." The man opened the suitcase and showed Peter the gold.

And Peter said, "PAVEMENT?"

RAVE ON AND RAMBLE ON!

RAVE ON AND RAMBLE ON!

We want the world and we want it now.

But not the Cosmos. “We” want the Aetherial World, the Sublime.

Oneness, Nirvana, Enlightenment, Singularity, Epiphany.

We want it ALL and we want it now!

All KNOWLEDGE!

ALL UNDERSTANDING!

ALL THE DOORS OF PERCEPTIONS.

I don’t care so much about what makes the planet ticks and how material things work.

What I really crave though is so-called human knowledge, 

TRUTH, GODLIKE HEARING AND SEEING AND KNOWING OF THE HEARTS AND HISTORY. DIVINE DISCERNEMENT OF LIES AND DECEIT AND TRUTH.

KNOWING ALL LANGUAGES, ALL RELIGIONS AND ALL PHILOSOPHIES and MOREOVER KNOWING REALLY KNOWING WHAT IS WHEAT, AND WHAT IS CHAFF, WHAT TO TAKE AND WHAT TO LEAVE.  

SOMEHOW IT almost seems to be necessary to know evil in order to recognise good or to know wrong to filter right.

Oh to have a time machine and the ultimate mind even bigger than Laplace’s Demon, as big as any God one can imagine.

To have  omniscience and omni benevolence and omni presence and omni what not. 

I don’t want to top God or replace God or ascend higher than God like Lucifer Heylel Ben Sachar.

 I JUST WANNA KNOW KNOW KNOW. 

Isa 14:11  Thy pomp is brought down to the grave, and the noise of thy viols: the worm is spread under thee, and the worms cover thee.

Isa 14:12  How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! how art thou cut down to the ground, which didst weaken the nations!

Isa 14:13  For thou hast said in thine heart, I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God: I will sit also upon the mount of the congregation, in the sides of the north:

Isa 14:14  I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will be like the most High.

Mat 5:6  Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.

How about those that hunger after wisdom, truth and knowledge like Number 5, INPUT, INPUT, INPUT PLEASE MORE INPUT.

THE kind of input that tells me everything and so much more and I am not talking of the theory of everything here which seems to be more of a subject of pride than anything else, I am talking about the Life, Universe and Everything but mainly Life, human life, human nature, human history, human illusions and delusions and know them for what they are and where they come from.

So much we don’t know. What we do know or at least think we know is like one atom in the universe or some superlative of superlatives that mathematics could not write down for lack of space.

Only to see all the 7000 or 8000 years I guess would be almost enough, to have knowledge of every single human that has come to this planet. To have an accurate knowledge of how many human souls with some sort of sapiens have been thrown in this realm and how they split some sort of a mega gigantic universal genealogy tree that would blow any mind. To know what they were thinking, how different languages came to be, how each and every religion and philosophy came to be, what were their true points based in reality and how much dirt and junk have been added on top for some too human “reasons” our usual pride and division and lies and stuff.

What came first? How did it come out? Basically if there is a God I’d like an eon or three convo with him head to head, heart to heart.

Here is some more of that book that bugs me, I mean I know there are other books and yes I’d love to know them too and in their original languages and meaning too thank you and also would like to know the book I know even much more with all the nuances of the original languages and also all the funny translation and interpretations that came with it that have twisted it beyond its original recognition.

It’s that bum James again, God he annoys me at time I think he would have really pissed me off in a face to face but then again everyone would like to think he’d get along with Jesus himself but some of his disciples well they leave a little to be desired if not downright freakish and that to this day even.

So the annoying bum James comes and says:

Jas 1:5  If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.

Jas 1:6  But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.

Jas 1:7  For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord.

Jas 1:8  A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.

If anyone lacks wisdom (and who doesn’t) just ask and it shall be given   BUT and there is ALWAYS a BUT and then he goes BLAH BLAH BLAH and they all go BLAH BLAH BLAH meaning and saying well you can never blame God the only one you always have to blame is YOU of course.

 Every conjurer in the world has always said the same thing, used the same trick.

And then as if he hadn’t rubbed it in enough already he comes back with more stuff right in your face

Jas 4:3  Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts.

Jas 4:4  Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God.

Jas 4:5  Do ye think that the scripture saith in vain, The spirit that dwelleth in us lusteth to envy?

Jas 4:6  But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble.

Jas 4:7  Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

Jas 4:8  Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.

At least all Jesus said was

Mat 7:7  Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

Much more simple even with the

Mat 7:8  For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

Mat 7:9  Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone?

Mat 7:10  Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent?

Mat 7:11  If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?

Mat 7:12  Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets.

But then again he had kind of given us a hint a la James before that if you don’t get it is because you’re a swine or a dog.

Mat 7:6  Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.

BUT I DO TRY NOT TO SEE MYSELF IN THOSE ANIMALISTIC TERMS. J

I mean I don’t like dogs and pigs that much you know ‘cept maybe for a Xmas Ham or two.

But for all I know all this might only be a CONCEPT, in fact all religions and gods and angels and demons and philosophy might be nothing BUT CONCEPTS.  Some WISHFUL THINKING from our over thinking brains.  There is no big picture and big plan and Einstein and Susskind and Hawking and I are all absolutely FULL OF SHIT at every level along with many more so-called GIANTS and my apologies for the sin of HUBRIS for including that little “I” in there.

 And Concepts often had names:

ANU

ENLIL

ENKI

BEL

DAGON

BAAL

ISHTAR

MARDUK

RA

AMON RA

OSIRIS

ISIS

BHRAMA

SHIVA

VISHNU

CHAOS

MAYHEM

ORDER

ELOHIM

YWYH

BUDDHA

JESUS

ALLAH

But by Jove are they fun to discuss and think about! Here is another good old name I forgot along with Zeus and some of his friends. I’ve always been a bit biased for Hercules myself and could kill for that ass-kicking ring he had. J  In fact that is probably why I don’t get answer to my prayers these days because the only pet I want is a T-Rex to take care of a few annoying neighbours and their bloody barking dogs.

Ok I think therefore I am whoop tee do but what is the point after all?

UN CONCEPT EST LA PERCEPTION D’UN CON!

Fun to do it while we can I suppose otherwise you might as well be feeding dem asexual/bisexual worms who don’t have as many problems as we do in the sense that there is much less thinking to do and there is no war of the sexes or religion to kill for as a worm.  Maybe they are the lucky and smart ones along with Douglas Adams’ dolphins.

So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish. 

Fish? Fishing? Well maybe the worms don’t have it so good after all.

The infinite proceeds from infinite. Then through knowledge, realizing the infinitude of the infinite, it remains as infinite alone.

Sounds a bit like my ramblings: Infinite!

Final answer is that there are no questions?

Few notes on religious experiences

More and more of it seems to be nothing short of TRAUMA to the brain.

Aldous Huxley said that the Medieval Christians frequently experienced "visions" of Heaven and Hell during the winter, when their diets were severely hampered by lack of critical nutrients in their food supplies (vitamin B, vitamin C)--these people frequently contracted Scurvy and other deficiencies, causing them to hallucinate. He also said that Christians and other religions fast in order to make themselves delirious, thus inducing visions and views of these "antipodes of the mind". Today, Huxley says people can reach these states of mind without harm to their bodies with the aid of certain drugs.

Spiritual drugs of all sorts including alcohol.

Fasting (depletion of vitamins and nutrients essential to the brain including sugar and the effect of ketones on brain cells.

Moses... bright light (fire) hallucinations

Paul bright light AND fall on the head from his horse.

All cult induced brain traumas, lack of food,  lack of sleep.

Epilepsy, manias are all conducive to spiritual experiences and in fact in the past have highly been mistaken for either demon possession or illumination

Ellen White stoned to the head and it would be interesting to see what sort of traumas the great and the small had to get into their different trances. 

One of the things that bugs me most also is that all these trances and visions and tunnels of Light and afterlife experiences are so PAROCHIAL and by being parochial therefore very different if not totally opposite to and from one another.  .

The devil’s best kept secret seems to be getting out of the bag more and more, to make us believe he doesn’t exist. Because bottom line is he might never have existed indeed and we just use him to justify our dirty deeds. How many people are used and abused and killed to stamp out the devil?

According to one of those famous books and “trance” writing again, how long is one generation and how long is one supposed to wait for hell to break loose on Israel before the “Lord’s return”?  That is another long story of hatred again based on a lot of history and bad blood and two “trance” writing books.

How many years have we all been waiting already and how about them poor suckers before we had any writing at all? How about the billions of poor suckers that always seem to be born in the “wrong” religion or civilisation? Pagans or Barbarians we call them, Infidels and what not.

While we call ourselves The CHOSEN! Well of course, Yeah Right! Aren’t we all? The Faithfuls!

Moses, Jesus, and many fasted for 40 days and I wonder again where this practice came from? Is it the long way around for people with no magic mushroom or LSD or defended alcohol?

Point is there is no prophet, there is no god talking to us now, there is no real miracles that placebo can’t copy like the Egyptian priests, nothing but utter silence from an omniscient, omni benevolent, omnipresent God that does love us and wants our good but apparently we can’t hear it or see it or achieve anything in matter of goodness.

On Aldous Huxley it is said that “In this work he examines the fact that although most people in modern civilization agree that they want a world of "liberty, peace, justice, and brotherly love", they have not been able to agree on how to achieve it. “

Personally I always found humanists and pacifists a little dreamy and deluded but aren’t we all? 

And the problem is compounding exponentially as the population is rising to never seen before numbers in the whole history of this planet.

How can you produce harmony among 7 billion when you could not do it with 3 billion or 1 billion or the much smaller world population we had in the whole history.

Hell there could not be harmony and balance with two people on earth and even less with 4 persons on earth which apparently is all we needed to witness our first murder over guess what: a different ritual of worship. Oh what a surprise!

MOST PEOPLE Huxley says? Most people want and love their religion and would kill or die for it in the most irrational and therefore emotional manner possible. And as long as there is religion there certainly won’t be any peace on earth.  Dawkins is finding the removal of superstition on the planet of formidable challenge and the source of a lot of grief.  Ignorance compounded with geographical Pride is a very bad mix. 

Because after all it is pretty well what most of this is:

Geographical pride mixed with anger and fear.

As I am nearing 100 “chapters” of this madness I do realize that all I have, all we have, is questions and no answers and also I am aware of the unsurmountable obstacle of leaving a world with no hopes at all rather than a false hope.  The idea that no one is in charge,  that all is futile,  that like the dog and the ant we will end up as manure to this planet is not very comforting indeed but

WHAT IF it IS ... ALL THAT WE ARE?

Then I’d be left with no answers but better yet no questions.

Sometimes I think Solomon was really close to the reality of our futility and that the best to do really is not to work too much, enjoy our lover and loved ones, enjoy our wine and our food,  sit and read a good book, watch a good program/movie and que sera sera. 

And maybe leave a few offsprings to keep the madness going.

So hopefully I too will have been part of someone’s good time and my endless dribbling might have been at least fun to read if not sensible. J