Let's write it here where no one reads it

Dear blog I had so many things to tell you lately but like tears in rain all those moments have gone swiftly. 

Prolly nothing you haven't heard before anyway but still sometimes I like to preserve my narcissistic manic moment in a media that will last longer than my dying ageing Charlie Gordon's brain.

Anyhoot water under the bridge for now.

So all these thoughts cannot have been important after all.

Had a rehash on my old pacifist stand today but that too is getting old and stale.

Waiting patiently for my 2 billionth second to come by and then we shall see or all the rest is gravy as some say I even have a countdown for it.

Getting old, new surgeries after new surgeries.   More surgeries to come. New medications, new side effects, new pains. What else is new?

I just made a quick list to add on to my current Comfortably Numb joke:  Can you show me where it hurts? How 'bout I show you where it doesn't hurt? It would take less time.

Made a quick list also:

Currently
My back right side
(a little higher than my usual pain in my right hip)
My left hand (what seems to be another botched surgery)
excruciating pain from times to times on both sides just below the ribcage
(probably caused by some hernia(s)
Recently added also maybe caused by that chemotherapy meds(Vismodegib)
Left elbow and Left Shoulder
(Shoulder is so bad that if I forget and put in my right sleeve first I have to undo it and start over with left arm)
constant cramps in both legs front and back and both feet. Sometimes rudely and sorely awaken by 3 (THREE) cramps at the same time
Sometimes it is nearly impossible to find a lying down position that doesn't hurt.
The question remains in chronic pain
HOW MUCH IS TOO MUCH?

another question How many painkiller can one take before the cure becomes worst than the sickness?

I am sure I must be forgetting a few I just call it travelling pain it keeps moving on and on to new and old places
As good Old Sol once said:
The heart knoweth his own bitterness; and a stranger doth not intermeddle with his joy.
In other words nothing really matters it is clear to see

The public system might be more depressing in other countries and places (like Quebec) and even worse when you don't have a public system (like USA) but it is of no comfort here as I can't seem to find a doctor to take me seriously not even sure I want to find one anymore even.

enough whingeing for today before I turn into a whingeing POM on top of it all :P

Ciao for now