NONE OF US ARE FREE

I was listening to Americans talking about Chinese today
and earlier on about the UK and its MI6 and Russia and what not
and all of it sounded to me like propaganda.

To One the Others are always evil and ONE is ALWAYS good.
To US we are good and THEM/THEY are evil, always.

I wish I or someone would have an IQ out of this world and a mind so utterly expanded some would say godlike to see things as they really are.

To the Chinese (and to so other many nations too) the Americans are the evil one with their power and their intere$t$.  

To Chinese also Japanese were the ultimate evil as they were to Americans around the same time.  Japan and Germany were the epitome of evil and now we buy their cars and IT shit.


To the Chinese also Great Britain was the ultimate enemy, profiteering colonisation with the import also of opium in order to steal tea or silk or whatever.

If Mexico sending all their cocaine to the USA is bad therefore
the UK sending opium to China is ALSO bad.

As Brassens used to paraphrase a French expression saying something like turning your tongue around 7 times before you say anything basically saying think before you move or say something
He said if you turn the butt of your rifle (or AK47) seven times your enemy becomes your ally or friend.

But anyway as I said or am trying to say it is just IMPOSSIBLE to decipher rhetoric and propaganda from any side.  No one is smart enough, unbiased enough or knowledgeable enough to sift through the amount of life much bigger than our space garbage and ocean garbage and what not.

but what if? 
what if someone could see everything as it really is now?

Thing is we white people are not the goodies or even the majority and our history is nothing but a bunch of lies and propaganda and white washing.  Americans do dirty dirty tricks in others' countries and in other people's affairs and so does the UK and China and Russia and billions of people of every country.

I'd like to end I guess with Solomon Burke's song:

None of us are FREE 
One of us is chained 

None of us are FREE.

and none of us is innocent either.

We all partake in the propaganda and swallow oceans of it.

the signs were all there they said posthumously

Howzat for a clickbait now eh? 😄

Have you tried being melodramatic lately?

Well let's say I am and may seem a little macabre lately
Fuck I wouldn't even live with myself.

Thing is if I try to think rationally and let's say errrr the amount of painkillers I just took kind of help in that department since I was very irrational when I took them but the overwhelming pain was not helping the thinking process.

So as I was saying if I try to think rationally the overall quality of life is somewhat acceptable and the multiple daily pains are usually short lived but still pain is pain is pain and the moment is unpleasant or hell depending on...

Of course there is this big OCD obsession (he is a nice pleonasm) for my
2 billionth second seems like a bad omen but then again is it really? I just love numbers that's all not mentioning that it is how long my dad and Donna Summer lived LOL

Pain management Chronic pain and pain prescriptions and what not is certainly nothing new and nothing peculiar to me for sure, it is epidemic these days and prolly more and more of a prob as one ages and faces the consequences of entropy.

Nights are disturbed and pain wakes me up but on the positive side I am retired and I can go back to bed anytime I want or anytime I can anyway... sometimes I need time for the blood to get back to my lower limbs and to get re-hydrated but I manage to catch up on much needed granddad naps.

The most horrible nights are when the "attacks" are multiple and constants and you can't see the end like a cramp or double cramp or triple cramp waking me every hour on the hour or add to this the errr looking for a superlative here... 

EXCRUCIATING would be a good one 

EXCRUCIATING pain of my guts trying to get out of my body like Ridley Scott's ALIEN which makes for a very very long 60 to 90 seconds of pain comparable to my old gallbladder attack 

which on the pain level is quite high on the register IIRC compared to giving birth and such

 and after much advice I don't need a third opinion apparently to tell me that I AM FUCKED in this regard that there is FUCK ALL to do but suffer and be careful when I try to wipe or wash my ASS or even when I turn in bed now.

In my last list I think I forgot to mention the arthritis in my left thumb also and the new cramps in my "hems"? just below the knee joint in the back.

Sometimes I consider going back on the patches I was on for 6 years even though they were hell to get off from. 

Not that desperate yet

and I try to tell myself the pain might diminish a bit once I am off this chemotherapy drug but there is no date on this yet, going to the hospital tomorrow to find out more.

So quality of life might be better and then again if I kept "Comfortably Numb" most of the time but that also comes at a cost. 

I have to say though I find myself extremely reasonable and moderate most of the time with pain killers

but sometimes like a night of getting shitfaced once in a blue moon it seems to help when things are too much.

Anyway who wants to hear my troubles or anyone's troubles in this modern world?

So let's leave this here in the Néant the Nothingness , the ethereal overflowing world of zeros and ones in this Huxleyan dystopia.