or Stream of Consciousness as Kerouac called it IIRC
so many things all entangled and yet some sort of a continuous An ARADNEAN thread in there somewhere.
Troubled as many and yet trying not to be by all the troubles in the world and by the constant flow, wait not flow,
some constant TSUNAMI of bombardments about the Orange Clown climbing the Mount Everest of Outrage, Ugliness, and Stupidity and unprecedented damage too that will take decades to reverse.
And even more by the utter POWERLESSNESS that follows, by the absolute impunity and total lack of boundaries and the ratio of Words to Actions here which is astronomically SMALL as no one does fuck all but be an utterly useless keyboard warrior and giving the narcissistic clown what he wants: attention.
Yours Truly here guilty as charged too.
And also my the puppet holders and their complete impunity and utter lack of retributive justice.
I was just reading about them lately ASSASSINATING the latest Hamas leader: Mohammed Odeh, not by retraction or arrest or nothing like that nah just using the latest technology to locate him and spend millions to shred him to pieces him and HIS WIFE and 3 of his children, not mentioning anyone in a 100 meters radius I guess.
I have said it before the not so cute euphemism Collateral Damage means babies arms and body parts flying in the air or some Vietnamese girl burnt to a crisp running and crying in terror
It reminded me of this scene in Scarface where Pacino / Tony Montana got into a world of troubles because he had PRINCIPLES, PRINCIPLES that many gangsters and hard criminals also have: No Women and No Children. END OF.
Not quite sure what happened and when but it seems to me we lost something important along the way.
Cointelpro Lies and Deceit Big Money Schemes and so on.
Sure there has been darkness for thousands of years and there still is I mean COLONIALISM and PILLAGING AND RAPING AND MURDERING happens every single fucking day and we all are guilty of it by some association somehow.
I mean if you are British or French or Dutch or Spanish or Portuguese GUILTY as FUCK.
(Belgian with the Congo etc etc)
They have all done it and they too thought they were invincible and more importantly INNOCENT AS FUCK.
I am often reminded of this old Proverbs verse
20Such is the way of an adulterous woman; she eateth, and wipeth her mouth, and saith, I have done no wickedness.
I mean SELF RIGHTEOUSNESS is the only sin and UGLY AS FUCK
and I too like Asaph sometimes in Psalm 73
16 When I thought to know this, it was too painful for me;
But UNLIKE Asaph I can't escape in lies and deceptions and delusional escape.
I guess the human mind is not able to comprehend reality and perspective and all these HUGE numbers are too much to fathom.
The weight of the pains and hurts and suffering in this world is immeasurable. Mine and 8 billions more multiplied daily.
Now I am not even getting about the fact that even though we the human race are able to write and communicate about of pains but trillions of life forms SUFFER every single second on this planet would it be a cat ran over by a car or a mother antelope who just lost her baby to the law of the jungle.
16 When I thought to know this, it was too painful for me;
Somehow we have to compartmentalize our view of reality
I can only hope things settle down a little but then again I am also thinking of the incoming preliminaries as Leonard Cohen called it.
At 70 I read the obituaries every day (have done so for years) and a fuckton of people kick the bucket in their 70s.
Anyhow I ran out of juice but you get the gist as always or you don't as I kind of know no one is reading this just leaving it as a trail of my last thoughts like HAL and Charlie Gordon
and all these words will be lost soon like tears in the rain
The funniest most ironic part is I wouldn't even read myself as I don't have the span of attention anymore .
I curse and moan at every fucking YouTuber rambling for 30 mins as it seems to be one rule of money making and obviously I am not in the marketing target
The photo above reminded me also of all the horrors we see in John Lennon's video the war is over.
The deaths, the innocents, the years and years of maiming and suffering etc.
16 When I thought to know this, it was too painful for me;
Anyway again what is the point eh?
Back to my ancient Zoroastrian Prophet here:
NOTHING REALLY MATTERS IT IS CLEAR TO SEE
Nothing really matters.... to me ♫♪♫
and I haven't even covered my own little trivial pains here
my pains and aches my fucking elbow hurting every day my grieving over my youngest daughter or even my cat not mentioning the daily challenge of conjugal bliss as I would NOT live with myself I AM IMPOSSIBLE, FUBAR Scarred beyond repair and patiently waiting for deliverance
I would be funner if I believed in the fairy tales that I will be reunited with my daughter and my cat but NAH.
Darkness and Oblivion : It is what it is,
Reminds me of the joke that got Stephen Fry kicked out of a Mormon gathering where the preacher was saying in eternity you will be reunited with you family
And Stephen Fry asked Yeah but what about if you were GOOD? LMAO
An eternity with my mum is what I would call the most cruel hell She had done enough damage already
End of Cuff and Stream of CONSCIOUNESS or what is left of it anyway
