MORE EMPTY SOUNDS

Which is exactly what KENOPHON means;
EMPTY (keno) SOUNDS (phon) 
BABBLER 
so WHILE WE ARE RAMBLING
Thought I could include this little paragraph I just wrote to put it down in my LEGACY :P  

People make a religion of everything and soon turn it into an ugly cult.

Thousands of children are starved and killed, babies arms flying everywhere, blood flowing in the streets but yeah let's discuss the drawing of storyboards by machines now and how OUTRAGEOUS it is.

We have totally lost the meaning of OUTRAGE!!!

not sure if it was in an Orwellian way or an Huxleyan way but it has been used against us to USE us, to numb us

The good old Us and Them . Divide and Conquer

My useless opinion is the man is 80+ and has accomplished more than you will ever do in your life so leave him the fuck alone if he wants to use as machine for his boards after having drawn thousands of them

PURISTS CULTISTS SELF-RIGHTEOUS PRICKS

put them all on a big BASKET to the bottom of HELL

I am better than you, I am CHOSEN has never led us anywhere good as we human are big on the Tall Poppy Syndrome But it wasn't the main subject that triggered this blog 
Been on way way too much social media lately and we all know how detrimental they are.

Going to Bali soon I have been inundated with every TOM and Harry Dick who has ever been anywhere and has a GoPRO. 

I have been kind of following a couple of them reluctantly.

For one thing there seems to be a stupid rule I hate and some of these guys feel forced to ramble for 30 mins plus which is beyond my shrunk attention span, there seems to be a rule where you are paid by the minute and I guess in 30 mins also you can include so many ads, not that I would know because I fucking hate ADS with a passion and I never see one. got all sort of protections against that both on the PC and on the phone.

Anyway they feel compelled to ramble on forever making the ratio of quality to quantity very small plus they also confessed that they are kind of forced to make 3 to 4 videos a week otherwise they fall into the ninth circle of hell of ALGORITHM

P.S. I do realise that as a dying old man I am not part of the main demographics :P  

I mean I can fucking RAMBLE ON I am sure we all know but to be forced to do it would be totally against my grain.
I mean look at my blog and what a roller coaster ride it has been now leading to a nice slow boat ride to China.

I have never converted my blog to a vlog except for one or twice in Canada when I was stuck with a phone and I would never type a whole blog on the phone now.

Plus it just ain't my nature. 

Anyway little blog don't rejoice too much lol 2
days in a row
but you could have a one year drought in no time
if not a permanent eternal drought.

a complete 

aridity, dehydration, aridness, desiccation, dryness, moisturelessness, rainlessness, parchedness and waterlessness.

a total 

shortage, lack, famine, deficiency, deficits, scarcity, inadequacy, absence; 

Absolute OBLIVION AND NOTHINGNESS FOREVER

But back to them streamers, YouTubers. 
To me most of them are absolute total FREAKS 
HUBRISTIC LITTLE PRICKS with a camera

Hell I could be a HUBRISTIC PRICK with my blog for all I know even if I delude myself in thinking I don't do it for others but mainly to decipher my "thoughts" on "PAPER" and to leave some sort of a legacy to friends and family bit maybe this blog is what it has always been:
A BAROMETER OF MY DECLINING MENTAL HEALTH.

Anyway as she used to say before she died:

IT IS WHAT IT IS.

Another one of my worthless thought I was (as I have been doing way too much lately) watching a short reel where this bloke was pontificating on red flags as if he was a fucking expert 

[ BTW many many of these loud mouths do nothing short of 
FREUDIAN PROJECTION , an evil defense mechanism]

So Mr Know-it-all here . 1st flag when your date says my ex was crazy ok check I will settle for that now 

For one thing everyone’s fucking ex was a fucking narcissistic pig because he didn’t worship me, or understand me, or cater to me or lost his will and everything to me.

Who is narcissistic now pray tell?

I even wrote a blog about that once  

no 2 I forgot but when it came with no 3 that is when I said FOAD and clicked next 

no3 When someone says I am NOT into labels 

FOAD arrogant asshole LOL 

Most of my therapists have always been against labels and though I have been diagnosed as bipolar I do not identify myself to a single label as we are all individuals with trillions of shades: not two of us are alike.

I prefer to Identify myself as a Mental MONGREL 
like Whitman I am MULTITUDES
            (I am large, I contain multitudes.)

(Mind you Kraft Dinner keeps identifying me as a family of four :P ) 

I mean if I was to name a few and not necessarily in order:

My last "shrink" says I am on the extreme level on
DEPRESSION and ANXIETY 
It's a bit like being claustrophobic AND agoraphobic at the same time :P 

I GOTTA GET OUT OF HERE 
ARRRGH! NO I CAN'T
I GOTTA GET OUT OF HERE 
ARRRGH! NO I CAN'T
I GOTTA GET OUT OF HERE 
ARRRGH! NO I CAN'T rinse and repeat 

ALSO I am quite certain to be somewhere up there on the autistic scale add to this ADHD and some sort of OCD and many other shades of MADNESS
Wish to FUCK I could read a book like in the old days 
There was a time back in my old days where I would read an author madly like 7 books AND A HALF , 9 books AND A HALF  (John Irving and L.M. Montgomery come to mind )

And I say AND A HALF here  because I ALWAYS ALWAYS DIED in the middle of a book and could never touch it again or go back to it 

I have always rationalised this as having no control
(whatever is said about freewill and the locus of control) 

I am a sailing ship in the middle of an ocean and if and WHEN the WIND blows I am fucking unstoppable but when the wind stops for reasons unknown I am totally stuck in the middle of a vast ocean with not even a single oar waiting for the fucking wind to come back 

So there you go little blog as I am stuck here between gaming seasons and Bali trips 

Another NEURODIVERGENT thingy apparently 
(here is ANOTHER LABEL) 
is that when we have an appointment in the middle of the day our whole day is fucked and when we have a trip in less than 2 weeks well our whole month is fucked if not more 

If that wind keeps up there might be a blog or two before I leave but I never know  as it is said in the gospels LOL 

Linguistic Wordplay: The Greek word pneuma (and Hebrew ruach) means both "wind" and "spirit,"

So as the great Zoroastrian Prophet Farrokh Bulsara once said 

Nothing really matters
Anyone can see
Nothing really matters
Nothing really matters to me

Any way the wind blows