IT MUST BE ME
Trying to listen to a very nice song here by an awesome singer and I just CAN'T.
All it takes is one bad apple one GODDAMN drunk cunt to ruin it all:
the classic bad apple that ruins the whole fucking basket.
What does it take for one to think?
(Maybe less alcohol to begin with)
and then again.
I mean how much empathy, intelligence, integrity, common sense (and what not)
does one need to just realise there are a hundred people around you and all of them paid good money to listen to a professional they like and none of them really enjoys you screaming non-stop like a banshee
(comme une guenon en chaleur)
I watched a concert by Neil Young on YouTube way way back then in England (1971)
where the spectators were a pure joy of class and respect it was sublime.
Never ever to be lived again with a million iphones in your face and fuck you if you're short, you're SOL.
It is well known that most gaming society are just getting worse everyday with toxic behaviour: blame some 12 year old with too much money or not enough character and laisser-faire parents but still there is no place to hide anymore not even in virtual reality which one would have loved to be dreamlike.
I haven't been to too many shows but I remember two of them where I enjoyed myself way back then:
Alice Cooper because I was 3rd row and the speakers covered all other noises
and Ani DiFranco where I showed up at 1PM for a show at 8PM IIRC, making sure I was standing in the first row right next to the stage.
All this to say that all together I much prefer STUDIO music without all the animals! :)
or maybe a stage show where myself have enough alcohol in me to filter out all the other noisy alcoholics LOL
Most of the time a live show or a cover (which I call a karaoke) just sends me back to the original, a bit like your first love that you never forget they say :)
End of rant for today.
Rants are getting fewer this year,
I would need a manic December like in 2009 just to match 2019.
O well this too shall pass I don't even know why 2015 was so slow since I can't remember yesterday or what I did 5 minutes ago.
the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
More like a long night really
I hate all those post asking us
Is He wrong? Is she wrong?
Asking us to sit on our imaginary throne of morality and goodness and decide whether we wanna thumb up or thumb down someone like a sick little emperor.
Like Ani DiFranco sang
Everyone is a Fucking Napoleon.
It just encourages the ignorant lynching mobs to foam at the mouth and that usually does NOT have a happy ending especially for the lynched whether he is "guilty" or not.
It is a rhetorical speech for power and control as it is so often done from the pulpit.
Sure there ARE things that may be "morally" "wrong" or "right"
WORDS ALL MADE UP AND CONSTRUCTED by twisted human beings ever since they were cursed with consciousness.
Just google my blog for Jonathan Haidt if you wanna hear me drool some more about so-called morality.
Every time I see one of those post it makes me shiver and sick to my stomach like if I was reading the National Enquirer or some other peasant rag.
This whole social media actually has become a huge farce on it and just amplified exponentially the ugliness of human nature at times.
Am I wrong?
Am I right?
DILLIGAF?
As Bing would translate it
Je ne donne pas une baise volante :P
Doc
I just saw a French Facebook group called:
Invitation à l'ouverture de notre Conscience
Follow
Invitation to the opening or our conscience
For one thing there is no such thing as
OUR conscience
when someone says OUR conscience
he is trying to impose to you HIS conscience
as twisted as it can be.
it makes me shiver to think of all the horrors and innuendos that could go on there.
It has ALL the hallmarks of a horrible cult.
When you decide to call someone or something toxic
(a popular word these days so is detox which is often nothing short of a snake oil scam)
You establish yourself as the image of purity as your own little god
to be worshipped and more importantly OBEYED.
The site goes on about what to do with your house what to keep what to throw away etc etc
The beginning of conscience / consciousness has always been nothing but trouble where everyone established himself as the final authority on right or wrong as the moral standard to be followed by all.
A conscience at its best is but extremely unreliable and totally corrupted by one's environment and geography.
Conscience: a person's moral sense of right and wrong, viewed as acting as a guide to one's behaviour.
next I might rant on so-called free will LOL
another concept that is not ageing very well either.
Aren't politics boring and petty or is it just me?
I am always reminded of this story of Watchmen Nee
(some dangerous idealist Chinese would say and I might agree)
When he was in England and everyone was excited about some war or some football game
he would remain calm because he was just passing by,
a perfect methaphor to being a pilgrim on earth.
On social medias we see many getting all excited or getting their knickers in a twist over local sports or politics.
American politics seem to be a major concern for many wherever they live.
(Maybe due to the fact that America OWNS most media)
All I can think of is THIS TOO SHALL PASS.
All of this is
SO PAROCHIAL
so provincial:
Two words that come quite often in my blog.
I know we are supposed to be limited
by Dunbar number
and we are nothing but advanced ape
but could we just for a moment
enlarge our mind, our perception:
our AWARENESS.
AND YES besides the Dunbar number limitations we are also crippled with the
Dunning-Kruger effect
so yeah the comments will never cease as we have a growing supply of below average people like George Carlin said:
"Think of how stupid the average person is, then realize that half of them are stupider than that."
Half of 7,739,584,089
is an awful lot of stupidity
Seven billion is so last decade! :P
(has reached 7 billion on October 31, 2011.)
3,869,792,044.5
that is nearly 4 BILLION IGNORANUS.
All this entropy will lead to a major nuclear fission soon.
Maybe there is a reason
for this Dunbar's number
and maybe we should be
tribal provincial and parochial after all
what is the point of trying to grasp it all
when we don't have the brain to do it,
we don't have the neocortex size.
Trigger:
HUMANSOFTUMBLR.COM
Guy Dumps Girlfriend for Calling His Relationship With His Brother "Disgusting"... But Was He in the Wrong?
Judgement and Blame and Outrage
and what not
has been around forever but in this nanoseconds speed of "communication"
it is more ridiculous than ever.
Was he wrong? Was he right?
What do you think?
Who fucking cares?
Shame, Blame, Guilt
all BUILT by humans constructs
on a sinking sand ground named Morality.
Example:
it is a "sin" and a source of guilt for a Catholic to miss a mass
it is a "sin" and a source of guilt for a Protestant to go to a Catholic mass.
It just seems to me that
the less educated
the more foaming at the mouth there is;
the less one is aware of his SHADOW,
his beast within,
the more in denial they are
the louder they growl.
It's never surprising the the "guiltier" one is (here is that word again)
the louder and more aggressive they are
i.e. Jimmy Swaggart
and every episode of Mystery Diners.
The world is led by LCD indeed.
And no it is not
Liquid Crystal Display but rather the
Lowest Common Denominator.
As George Carlin would say:
“Think of how stupid the average person is,
and realise half of them are stupider than that.”
Schadenfreude has grown exponentially lately.
Establishing one's value by shitting on others and mocking and shaming them seems to me a poor Freudian Defence Mechanism of Projection.
In a world of SEVEN BILLION people spending time finding the rotten apples seems to be such a waste of time.
Maybe I am the psychotic one not caring one bit about what fake or not fake clickbait did or did not do or allegedly did.
Enough philosophising for today as it is time to start the day at 2PM lol things to do other than gaming for a change.
As I am growing older I like more and more André Fortin's line:
Y'a pas de coupable, Y'a pas de honte.
There is no guilty one, there is no shame.
Even though analysed deeply it would leave something to be desired for sure but from the viewpoint of a dying man it made sense to me.
There is something paradoxical and oxymoronic here
with the emphasis on moronic
in this whole exercise.
Me judging people for judging people
sounds well a bit arrogant if not ignorant.
But I think it is human nature to worry about trends or at least for me to try to swim against the tide.
I don't like the tide.
K for real now nuff said :)
Epiphany
to show on
to show to
to manifest
display
come suddenly into play
I have often expressed
a thirst for truth
and knowledge
a cure for the human blindness we all have.
There is always a
"there's gotta be more to..."
inside of me.
This epiphany however is obviously beyond
way beyond
what we call intelligence on this planet.
Plus what good would it do?
A it is more likely to get me killed
or ignored
than to change the world as it is.
So in a way it is a little hubristic and selfish to know just for the sake of knowledge and the satisfaction that comes with it.
Tant qu'il y a de la vie il y a de l'espoir
or so they say.
A discovery of transcendental utopia on this planet is more than unlikely with the data given on human nature and simple extrapolation.
Th French wiki describes epiphany as
a manifestation of what was hidden
a bit similar to the Greek word for Truth Aletheia: a lack of concealment.
This time though the concealment is not wilful and intended
it is genetic;
it is in our DNA:
we don't know that we don't know
and more than likely we will never know.
Life won't have TIME to explain itself nor the tools or the reception to do it.
As far as life knows
it is killed or be killed,
destroy or be destroyed
in order to survive.
But no one knows.
No gods
no prophets
no politicians
no humans at all
not a single living thing really
Unless Douglas Adams' dolphins have been hiding things on us
or maybe the Siamese cats
according to Lobsang Rampa. 😜
So why keep asking and searching
one would say?
So much for ask and you shall receive
and those who thirst for righteousness
blah blah blah
But there HAS GOT to be so much more than to SERVE.
Valar morghulis translates to "all men must die"
in High Valyrian.
It is a customary saying in Essos that is traditionally answered with
"valar dohaeris," meaning "all men must serve." ...
Customs and Traditions are the beginning of all trouble.
All who say and believe that
have a hidden agenda
and usually end up as the BENEFICIARIES of such "service"
Serve your God?
Serve your country?
The question ALWAYS is
FOR WHOSE PROFIT?
Usually not the profit of the servant.
The word freedom itself should strongly imply free of servitude.
Leadership and Benevolence are like matter and antimatter they just don't go together.
Of course we cannot be all meditating top of the mountain sitting Buddhas now
or if we were in fact the problem would solve itself as the population would go down to zero withing 100 years.
I am still reluctant though to abandon all enjoyment for the sake of Nirvana.
Until we do become ethereal beings
food and sex and rock and roll will be part of our life
suffering or not.
Can food and sex and rock and roll need to a real enlightenment now?
As far as I know nothing does since the beginning of time.
Most of it is sham and scam
or pride and retardation.
Speaking of retardation enough of mine for today
If you find the secret to life please share it with me quick before you get crucified! :)
Ciao for Now
Doc
Not another one
Trigger this time
this news or fake news from what I would consider a
reputable/ reliable site patheos.com
a site I follow on Facebook.
Fake news? Real news?
Who knows anymore nowadays?
Bottom line is this shit probably happens
way too often.
(Why am I reminded of Boys don't Cry here?
What is the next free association now? Deliverance?
Or Winter's Bone even)
Thing is there are I am sure 100 million Americans that are perfectly fine but they are not the one you hear from.
The media worships the bad apple often making you think they are the whole fucking basket.
Of course there are plenty of ignorant self-righteous rednecks out there.
Writing all this while listening to an 18 year old song that is just as contemporary today as the expression
"surrounded by a world's worth of things you just can't excuse"
just comes to mind the song being
Your Next Bold Move from Ani DiFranco.
I do have a tendency to foam at the mouth at the one bad apple I must say...
the one noisy neighbour...
the one barking dog,
the slow driver in traffic etc
but the expression remains
that one bad apple spoils the whole basket.
I am sure there has been a ton of ink poured on the subject for millenniums.
One imperfection removes all perfectness.
And since there is no justice I should read more Albert Ellis and meditate seriously about all the serenity lost at ALL the things I cannot change.
I don't know something about this male integrity in our family and me being a dreamer with my head up my ass: the last Romantic.
What if and what not? I mean the world would be nowhere near perfect FFS
if I never saw anything ugly or frustrating.
I mean I am NOT by any means the last standard of good and morality and justice.
I more or less always kind of directed my life with the negative golden rule.
I try
(or I delude myself in thinking I am trying)
to NOT do unto others
what I don't want them to do unto me
but a few months ago I realised
(had an epiphany)
that what I don't like done unto me
is by no means a standard of rightness and correctness
considering I am damaged goods, a highly imperfect human being with countless visible and invisible quirks and obsessions and just wrong raising and emotional quotient.
But in my limited capacity
it has seemed to me a good rule of thumb
to go by.
The ideal solution I think would be to filter what I read more and more. For one thing there is something deadly wrong with this news business and also the explosion of useless facts propagated at light speed by the internet. And another solution would be to "transcend" be resilient and all that shit.
Now Sue sez I am manic because I write blogs lol and I often said the same thing (even though I do feel kinda depressed) but it also could be some sort of depression , a complete anhedonia where I don't find relief even in gaming these days.
P.S. in order to stay sane one would definitely have to stay away from American news and especially this total insanity they call Christianity over there.
History will tell that the 20th and 21st century wrongly and hubristically believed that they had left the dark ages.
Apes with guns really.
