You're sitting quietly at a meeting somewhere and someone is retiring or it is his birthday and the most jovial semi drunk member of your group starts:
For he's a jolly good fellow ♪♫♪♫
blah blah blah
and you mutter under your breath
OH FUCK NO> PLEASE DON'T > STOP IT RIGHT NOW!
CAPITALS because one can mutter under his breath quite loudly now! :)
You resist and feel the immense pressure to join in for fear of being looked at as the ODD ONE when you well fucking know that the sheep are the odd ones for sure.
I was just saying this week I wonder who is the fucker who started the habit of clapping during ball reviews at tennis.
Everybody was sitting there quietly watching the big screen and then one day one fucker with one or two too many cheap expensive beer started clapping and guess what?
You wouldn't be caught dead not clapping now 'cause that is what people do.
It's like singing the national anthem or Happy Birthday those kind of simian behaviour should be kept really where they belong:
in the choir practice and exhibition.
If you are dying to sing in unison learn the fucking Requiem for fuck sake.
Confutatis Fucka me and all that Jazz.
I know it's Voca Me but I prefer MY version! :)
Fucka Me Cum Benedictus. or more appropriately
Fucka Me Cum Maledictus.
This is how mass hysteria and lynching and foaming at the mouth mutilation and murder happens with our simian habits so the less we have the better we are.
We are so modelled to fit in it's downright crazy.
From family to school to job to retirement even all peaceful Elois letting the Morlocks rule the world. when we don't turn into Morlocks ourselves.
I prefer the Whitman approach meself when it comes to simian habits:
“Resist much, obey little.” A
"re-examine all you have been told at school or church or in any book, dismiss whatever insults your own soul"
end of rant for now
There is a strange thing going on these days well strange to my old eyes anyway.
It is the appropriating of any generic whiny poor little misunderstood betrayed suffering me and making it your own as if it was your creation and your WHOLE life story.
One reads something and says oh yeah that is so ME and shares it right away when and where if one started to think and analyse for a second one could see it is a generic saying a bit like a horoscope and does not identify one's whole life story.
maybe it's a millennial thing. I totally fail to get millennials it must be a sign of the ages.
Nothing new under the sun.
Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door
Mike & The Mechanics - The Living Years Lyrics
Every generation
Blames the one before
OR THE ONE AFTER!
It just seems to make it hard to figure out one's personality when the only Simulacra and Simulation
(to quote Baudrillart here)
is a bunch of lame glued together memes.
Not sure what the future of Social Medias will be.
I am afraid that Charlie Brooker might be our own contemporary prophet of Doom
in his canonical Black Mirror.
Speaking of Black Mirror and Millennials I was horrified by this recently.
It's the same thing on the train though. Everyone completely absorbed by their black mirror.
Mine is usually in my pocket or in my bag LOL attached to my earbuds to block out the rest of the noisy world anyway, for the few who are not glued to their black mirror.
I find Facebook more and more depressing and from a discussion I had just this week with my doctor I am not the only one apparently.
I stay off Twitter and am way too old for Instamatic anyway.
Another good example was this Fox app or some other TV app advertisement and this rich spoiled little girl who was totally bored and absolutely rude to her boyfriend because she had seen everything on the bus here and there and did not shy away from showing her boredom
( reminds me of that fake millennial ad on Subway Chicken too lol yawning at boring chicken)
My own adolescence was absolutely troubled and messed up don't get me wrong.
I went from hash, to mescaline, to acid, to cranking meth, back to mescaline by the tea spoon in no time and I ended up in a detox centre and homeless by the time I was 20
but STILL I am quite thankful (even though I had no choice in the matter) that I am not a teenager in this day and age. (even though today's teenagers would hardly qualify as millennials I suppose)
Anyway here is my old fart new rant for today.
Ciao for now
Death will be the Great Equaliser!
After all it is my "name",
my "handle" :
kenophon
What is a binary number in Greek now?
Because to be fair I should be called empty binary numbers since this is what a blog is.
so here it goes again.
Maybe I am a psychopath but why in the world would I bother reading about another school shooting?
Jordan Peterson who says he hasn't watched news in donkeys years is fascinated by all this dark madness and so am I to a point.
Trying to analyse the shadow and all and our dark repressed side.
It just gets tedious after a while, 17 in less than two months and to which ones do you pay more attention now?
As I was just saying I have always tended to swim against the tide so no Game of Thrones for me or Housewives series.
I was a bit disappointed when a big intellect chatting with J.P. said she was a fan.
No needs for news to know that
the US of A are slightly fucked up
and different from other "civilised" nations.
Money talks and bullshit walks
and the solution is not in a foreseeable future.
What I can't wait for now is a TV that totally skips the ads even if I have to record the thing and watch it later so I don't ever have to see that Gina's face again (even in fast forward) especially when I am having dinner. Yucks.
Googlebox and reactions youtube viral videos?
What is the world coming to?
What is next?
Back to real gladiators?
This habit of pitting nasty vicious people against so-called nice people to get grinding of the teeth and foaming of the mouth of the hoi polloi reminds me a lot of the wrestling world.
Them producers must travel a lot to scout the scum of the earth.
And then again people get all up in arms for a short time when 17 kids die in a western country and at the same time don't give a flying fuck about a thousand baby's arms flying up in the air from drones especially if they are brown. (the kids not the drones)
We're all FUBAR and hypocrites
bottom line methinks at times.
Speaking of hypocrites LOL
Jordan Peterson is always foaming at the mouth at Justin Trudeau over this and that, the main reason being I think that Peterson at heart is an Albertan, a rich Albertan at that and with the failure of the NDP having no chance of ever winning an election is therefore just another Conservative like Harper and his "let's bring on the Armageddon" mates. Even intelligent people are chained by their environment.
He was harping over Trudeau deciding to make the cabinet 50/50 ration of males and females when the electorate has only elected 25% of females
stating mindbogglingly
that a cabinet was chosen on competence???
FFS?
Really?
In what world?
On what planet?
Nepotism is and has always ruled
and oligarchy and plutocracy and what not.
Just look at your beloved Russia for instance
or just south to the US
or any other race with an apparently higher IQ average.
And when he becomes rich and famous
and he needs a personal assistant
did he have a competence test?
FUCK NO!!!
Guess who he hired ?
Well his own daughter of course
because that his the way things work in a hierarchy
when you're not a lobster.
End of rant and small blog for now :P
trying to clear my mind on a subject I know nothing about
therefore the Socratic part.
Been pondering on the new icon Jordan Peterson lately and how he sounds too good to be true.
At first I must say as I am known to I was quite fascinated with him, nearly obsessed, but without going total splitting on him I always step back to have a wider look.
I have many suspicions about him that I can't put my finger on and I am certainly not equipped for a match of wit or so called debate with a high intellectual even though well read looks interesting and fascinating the fact remains that many if not most well read people are still asshole or FOS as I often say, Full Of Shit.
Obviously he does have some strong biases on the way he read the Russsians,
Solzhenitsyn / Soljenitsyne /Soljenitsin
and Fyodor Dostoyevsky / Fiodor Dostoïevski
(I wish the world could agree on ONE spelling of Russian names)
The very fact that he named his daughter Mikhaila after Gorbachev is quite revealing actually.
Plus we are talking authors that went through the wringer, through a lot of suffering and one of them even had a syndrome named after him but the name was later changed if I got all this right. When I first googled Dosto it gave me the Dosto syndrome which sent me here:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Geschwind_syndrome
So basically taking all of Fyodor's preaching at face value has the same psychological value as taking all of the writing of Paul the Apostle at face value considering he too fell off his horse and more than likely was manic before he became delusional with temporal lobe damage as well.
Trying to keep my thoughts together here there are a lot of alarm bells that rings when it comes to JP.
For one thing as much as he hates the expression white privilege, it is so fucking obvious that he would not have the same standing if he was an Asian woman let's say or even an Indian teacher.
And his high praise of IQ is at best laughable as so many high IQ's are utter fucking morons and psychopathic assholes without even mentioning the Unabomber.
Trudeau the father could have probably wiped the floor with him and I am sure the two would not agree.
JP's association with Jonathan Haidt bugs me to as I have made my position clear about Haidt a few times.
Also his risible idea that one organises a cabinet or a government with competent people FFS
wake up and smell the coffee
and look around you.
A competent Knesset would be such an oxymoron,
the American "cabinet" is a fucking joke of oligarchy
yet JP praises Trump as an "intelligent" man.
Sure Justin might not be perfect but Harper was a fucking disaster
so in the choice between two evils
I would choose the lesser.
Of course rich self sufficient people always want the right conservative to win in their lobster hierarchy.
Harper transformed Canada known as a peacekeeper nation into America's bitch and sent hundred of young Canadians to die needlessly with shoddy equipment because of course the rich hierarchy would not waste money of saving POOR motherfucker's life.
And Trudeau brought the old age pension BACK to 65 IIRC
which means nothing for self sufficient rich fucks but means the world to the thousands of poor motherfuckers struggling out there every day just to survive Those people who cannot afford houses, luxuries, and flying first class with all expenses paid.
So self righteous self made men always seem to fall for that shit.
Even the great Hitchens fell for it and well discussing with Harris is like giving you two options between the right and the right.
Speaking of also his unapologetic "Christianism" is bizarre at best for an intellectual and a "scientist" even though many shy away from calling Psychology a science.
All his Jungian reading has made him mad to paraphrase Festus here.
Suddenly, Festus shouted, "Paul, you are insane. Too much study has made you crazy!" Acts 26:24
Plus there is more to adhering to religion than intellect there is a tremendous social emotional pressure to fit in especially if you wanna go up in that so-called hierarchy needless to remind you that there never was an atheist American President top of that hierarchy bullshit pile.
So here it is in a few words just trying to collect my thoughts together on the subject by writing some notes down.
While I am here on the subject it surprises me that the great intellect psychologist has not diagnoned himself as bipolar recognising the depression while tending to forget the obvious manias.
Don't get me wrong I like the man for the moment considering viral memes go stale at the speed of light in this crazy age.
He seems to walk the walk as much as he talks the talk but still this statistical cold truth bugs me as if it has always been like this and it should always be.
Let's have war and famines and poverty and backstabbing fight to the top with all the corruption and free for all involved. As cold and unethical as let's say making people drunk for some study.
Most top of hierarchy people as far as I am concerned are psychopathic criminals where the ends justifies the means
even though JP tries to point out clearly that it should be done right
his young crazy followers don't give much of a fuck and continue sending death threats to all who oppose him or them
and if that is NOT FUCKING CHAOS well nothing is.
I understand he feels that things are somewhat surreal since the infamous interview but I think he might have done more good back in the teaching and clinical hours day which he can't afford anymore since he is too busy making insane amounts of money rehashing the same old bullshit over and over all over the world.
He is paid more in an hour than the poor fuckers Harper sent to die were paid in a year.
Unfair of me you would say?
O well my opinions never carried much weight obviously but thanks to freedom of speech he cherishes so much I am entitled to them.
"You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villain."
P.S. Why focus only on western Judeo Christian Mythology now it seems so parochial so provincial Why not the older other mythical stories.
Greek mythology has thousands of lessons,
so would Shakespeare really.
Oriental mythology is widely unexplored and probably funner.
These old genocidal incestuous 700 B.C. old stories are certainly not the best example now?
As IF they were ever real FFS?
Adam and Eve?
Cain and Abel?
Lot and his lot etc.
It seems to me such a waste of time to study so many lies.
End of Rant for the mo just glad I deciphered some of that in my mind with ones and zeros now written and posted.
After watching Chocolat for the umpteenth time recently I started having Hot Chocolate now in the morning and even though I am not even close of making it half as good as la Binoche did it reminded of of some good times I had a long time ago.
Back in 1978 early winter your mum and I used to go for long walks in the snow to errrrr cool our hormones mainly LOL
And we discovered this really nice Colombian Cafeteria miles away.
They just had this awesome awesome Hot Chocolate served straight out of a copper pot into a huge bowl made of real chocolate and subtle spices and all for the price of any regular hot chocolate anywhere.
After a long cold winter walk it was pure heaven I tell ya.
We were very very poor I think we just had had a huge raise on our weekly allowance from $2 to $5 each.
So that was a huge $10 to spend between the both of us.
So we spent it on hot chocolates and
empanadas or enchiladas or what not they had.
One of the owners took a liking to us and
when we left he always gave us a huge bag of
Empanadas /Enchiladas/ WhatNots
FOR FREE
worth more than all we had bought on that night
while his partner gave him the evil eye LOL
Needless to say that business went tits up in no time
but those were good times.
Thoughts from last night
Some people worry much about death yet they don't worry at all about the 8 hours "death" they have every single night.
Sleep, Unconsciousness, coma, death and even Alzheimer/dementia all the same thing really deep down.
Morpheus, Hypnos and Thanatos are all interrelated.
Sure there remains the Hamlet's
What Dreams may or may not come thingie but still unconsciousness, oblivion, being unborn
or being dead is all the same thing.
We didn't miss it before we won't miss it after.
Same process for every single trillions and trillions of life forms except we think we are "Special" apes very similar to many Rusty Cohle conversations here.
I think human consciousness, is a tragic misstep in evolution. We became too self-aware, nature created an aspect of nature separate from itself, we are creatures that should not exist by natural law. We are things that labor under the illusion of having a self; an accretion of sensory, experience and feeling, programmed with total assurance that we are each somebody, when in fact everybody is nobody. Maybe the honorable thing for our species to do is deny our programming, stop reproducing, walk hand in hand into extinction, one last midnight, brothers and sisters opting out of a raw deal.
The ontological fallacy of expecting a light at the end of the tunnel, well, that’s what the preacher sells, same as a shrink. See, the preacher, he encourages your capacity for illusion. Then he tells you it’s a fucking virtue. Always a buck to be had doing that, and it’s such a desperate sense of entitlement, isn’t it?
If you live to 70
you spend roughly 400 thousands hours "awake"
and 200 thousands hours sleeping.
Now the fact that you were sleeping for billions of years before you were born
and will be sleeping again for another few billion years again
should not be so dreadful.
The problem obviously came with the invention of religion and scary horror story for the sole purpose to control you and make some money from you again like Rusty said it all started when one monkey looked at the sun and said to the other monkey
"he said to give me all your bananas/money etc."
It IS the country from where no one has returned therefore no one knows for sure.
I like to think of it as the great Equaliser or the great rest somehow.
No more pain, no more heartbreak,
no more lies, no more deceit,
hell no more pissing or shitting even.
Death IS our one last DUMP.
So when you gotta go, you gotta go.
I am 62 years old. I have been Catholic, Protestant, Evangelical and what not. I served mass as a choir boy
IN LATIN FFS.
Used to get up at 4 am to serve the 6am mass to give me time to tie the hundred buttons on that damn robe.
The whole province had what they called a quiet revolution in the sixties and the Catholic Church lost a lot of power.
I strayed away like most nearly killed myself with drugs many a times betweeen 16 and 20
went to a detox centre and shortly after in 1976 I had an 'unfortunate' encounter with a young man that was followed quickly by a "conversion" went to a baptist church and of course a great fall 1 month later .
Another month gone and one homeless night in a highly anxious and homeless situation I ended up in a cult for way too many years.
Well to be exact the 'conversion' was August 12, 1976 and my first entrance in the cult was October 12th. 1976
I got married on June 10th 1978 and left the cult for the first time on June 10th, 1988 disillusioned at the thought of losing my children to other cult's members as I had no choice or no power in the situation.
Needless to say i did not adapt well to the "outside world" and I went back willingly in the cult in June 1990. I keep a few dates in a document due to my failing memory.
March 1989 33 First time to see the kids in 9 months (9, 7, 5)
24-08-89 33 Dad passed away
June 1990 34 Second Entry
June 1991 35 End of one year “probation”
I was put in "probation" for a whole year and was allowed back with my wife for a whole 9 months and my history with the cult finally ended on March 14th 1992.
I have to confess it took me another zillion years to finally get deprogrammed.
14-03-1992 36 Second Departure from the cult (Kids 12, 10, 8)
07-1993 37 Serge St Jude
25-12-1993 37 First time to see the kids in One Year and 9 Months (14, 11, 10)
Jan to June 1994 6 months of silence treatment ( 15,12,10)
I lived at my brother for 6 months got kicked out of there and it took me 1 year and nine months to see my kids again after a lengthy battle with depression and the family court laws and dirty low blows false accusations from the cult where I gained supervised visits (supervised by the cult) where the silence treatment was sometimes suspended to insult me, call me names, deny me, and even spit on me.
(and one wonders why I am not more fucked up than I am, people were questioning my sanity way back then to keep going to this treatment weekly with no money and no cars depending on friends to drive me for an hour (in winter storms sometimes) wait for 3 hours and drive me back home completely shattered.
And I am not even mentioning the insanity going up in my own home as a child which is prolly another reason for early BPD , and ending up in a cult for so long)
by friends I mean people from a Baptist Church I was attending at the time.)
All in all I was BAPTIZED FOUR TIMES.
Once as a baby, once in the cult and ANOTHER time in the cult because obviously I wasn't good enough and I needed more cleansing and even once here AGAIN in Australia at the Church of Christ (along with Sue even).
When did I become a full atheist then? I am not quite sure it happened progressively but is has been many years now and I doubt very much I will revert now to anything else but rational secularism.
there would be a lot more to say 62 years is a fucking long long time but I have to keep some for the next episodes I suppose! :P
P.S. I was diagnosed as bipolar a few years ago 2009 but in hindsight it has "always" been there or for a long long time anyway I can assure you that on the night of October 12th, 1976 I was highly manic, hindsight is 20/20.
You're sitting quietly at a meeting somewhere and someone is retiring or it is his birthday and the most jovial semi drunk member of your group starts:
